I let myself get in a bit of a slump last week. Actually, it wasn’t just a little slump. It was a full-scale meltdown. But the time Jeremy got home from work, I was sobbing in the recliner in the kitchen, nursing Seth, while Jesse brought me tissues and Claire gave me silent kisses. When I painted the scene for my brother on the phone later, he was aghast.
“What happened?!!” he cried.
“Oh, nothing really!” I assured him, and it was pretty much the truth.
I’d had a productive day, kept 3 children alive until 5pm, and even worked out for the first time since I got pregnant with Seth! Maybe I had changed one too many poopy diapers. Maybe my postpartum hormones (hateful things) finally got the better of me. Maybe I was panicking ’cause I didn’t know what I was going to make for dinner the next day. Or maybe all of the above.
Actually, I do know what set me off. I had spent my free time in the afternoon (such a thing exists during naps IF I’ve got my chores done!) reading my favorite real food blogs, including Cheeseslave and The Nourishing Gourmet. To tell you the truth, I’m getting tired of my baby weight, and being at the mercy of raging hormones. I was looking for a quick fix. Fact is, I’m only 11 weeks postpartum and what my body simply needs is time. But spending all that time on foodie blogs had me feeling really inadequate and guilty and lazy. In the face of these Natural Real Food Giants, I was feeling like a failure. Overwhelmed by all the things I could or should be doing to eat healthier, and by the fact that I simply don’t have the time in this season.
So, what did I do? First, I got off the computer. One should never continue a pity party while sitting down. The best thing to do is to turn your angst into motivation. Unfortunately, I was so down, all I could do was call my friend, B—-, who is also on a journey to healthier living, and with whom I knew I could commiserate. The wonderful thing about B—- is that she is so sensitive, and when she knows you need prayer, she doesn’t say “I’ll pray for you”, but rather, “Let’s pray about this right now!” She lifted me and my cares to Jesus right there on the phone, despite her busy day, and I was blessed. Not better – not that fast, but blessed.
The better part came by the end of the day, when I had come up with a plan of action. I have to have a plan in order to have peace (anyone else out there like that?). I decide I would continue to focus on the nutrition basics I have come to believe are the backbone to the good health me and my family enjoy. Most of this was stuff I was already doing; putting it on paper helped me to see that I wasn’t doing so bad, after all.
1.Cooking from scratch with whole foods as much as possible.
2. Making and using homemade bone broth to flavor foods – instead of bullion or canned soup – saves money, keeps junk like MSG out of our diet, and gives us wonderful vitamins and minerals.
3. Trying to eat fresh veggies at least once a day, along with homemade dressings.
4. Making the most of the good, raw milk supply we have. While breastfeeding, it’s essential that I get several of servings of good dairy a day. I need to keep drinking it by the glassful, making it into whey and yogurt, and this week I tried kefir for the first time. (It was sooo easy, I don’t know why I haven’t done it before!)
5. Making sure I get the right fats in my diet, as they are essential to healthy hormone levels. (I’m gonna tell you about what fats I use and what fats I don’t in an upcoming post)
7. Getting as much sleep as I can, and not over-doing it during the day. Now that Seth is sleeping through the night and I am feeling human again, it’s easy to get too busy and wear myself out that way! Gotta slow down. Nothing on my to-do list should be as important and taking good care of my body so I can be the wife and mommy my family needs.
Well, there’s my list. How about you? What do you do when you have a meltdown? What sets you off? How do you recover? C’mon, peoples – I know I’m not alone here!