Embracing Beauty

On Dreams and Going Backwards

Five Minute Friday’s Theme: Backwards…

1 year: I was growing achingly larger with my third child, hoping, hoping it would be a boy so I could name him Seth.

2 years: We were walking through a darling old house, falling in love and praying we’d win it at auction.

6 years: We were falling head-over heels in love and I was ready for a ring.

10 years: I was a young 19, living with my family on the homestead, only dreaming of all that was to come. My days were filled with gardening, tending animals, and sewing for my new obsession – costumes!

16 years: I was living in a tipi, adjusting from city life to the middle of nowhere and learning to love our land.

24 years: I was about 5 when I told my mom I wanted to be an author when I grew up.  Back then it was children’s books I wanted to create – I never dreamed I’d author a cookbook

STOP

It’s amazing to look backwards…I can clearly see the hand of God as He molded my heart and dreams and wrote a story beyond my wildest imaginations. Remembering His faithfulness gives me courage for the future.

Does anyone else do this? I have to give myself 10 min. to write a Five Minute Friday post because of all the interruptions – Jump up to see why the kids are screaming in the studio (they were hiding from tigers). Jump up to plug the laptop in before it runs out of batteries. Jump up to answer the cry for help from the studio ( “Us need this blanket here ’cause us makin’ a house!”). Jump up to check on the youngest who has been put down for a nap but has opinions on the matter. Perhaps I could come up with something more inspired if I waited till bedtime to write? Probably. :)

What Love Looked Like at My House Today

Gypsy Mamma’s writing prompts help my sanity because, for just 5 min. a week, I tap into the artistic and pretend I really am a writer. Today’s prompt hit me right in the middle of analyzing the kind of love I offered my son today, and how miserably it compared to the Love God showed us when He gave His Son…

The Hard Love

The Hard Love…gets up off the couch to address a sibling squabble when the feet just wanted a moment’s rest.

The Hard Love…gets down on knees and prays for peace instead of demanding the tantrum stop.

The Hard Love…puts aside agenda, to-do lists, and deadlines such as the postman, the Easter dress, and yes, even meal time, to love. To love slowly, patiently, sacrificially. To love as long as it takes until love wins. To sit back down on the couch and cuddle a wounded little soul, exhausted from his tantrum and truly sorry, until the chest stops heaving, the tears have dried, and his cry for “Mommy Time” is answered.

This is the hard love – the Love the Father gave to us. He didn’t go for the quick fix, He had no agenda but us – we WERE His agenda. So He did whatever it took, as long as it took…33 years of sowing seeds…hours of agony…3 days of hopeless distance…Until Love Won.

Stop

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Grand Canyon

Five Minute Fridays Writing Prompt – On Distance

photo taken on our honeymoon – Grand Canyon, October, 2005

The distance between…two souls can seem so, so far. The space vast, as the thousands of gulps of air between the South and North cliffs of the Grand Canyon. Every breath, sobbed, whispered, used for prayer or tears, filling up the space. The empty space. Filled with…emptiness. Waiting. Waiting. Waiting. For a wind rushing, for a water roaring, for warmth and life and spring and blossoms. Waiting for God’s breath. Meanwhile, let us gaze at the awesome beauty of a crack made by God’s own hand, punctuation in a life. Purple, brown, blue, orange thread in a tapestry. Monument to faith in a Beautiful Designer. Who allows us to see the beauty in a canyon.

Stop.

 I’m practically out of breath. Wow. I love Five Minute Fridays – a chance to “just write and not worry if it’s just right or not.” Join the fun! It’s exhilarating and exhausting and amazing!

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